If there were more Wu Fu in the world.

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Was watching the new channel 8 drama 五福到 (eng title: the best things in life) and how i wished i could be as simple or meet someone as simple as the main guy - Wu Fu (played by Chen Han Wei) who is a simple countryman who has been living in his fish village for the past 35 years of his life. he is the simplest, cutest, most naive person one would meet, although he is fictional. i mean, he doesn't think twice before helping his friends, he gets happy over the simplest things and his love for someone is so pure, there isn't any motive. i know he is just a fictional character and it is probably hard to ever find another guy so simple like wu fu. and honestly, most singaporean girls won't like him. he's too simple, doesn't have a steady job, isn't really good looking, too simple, too naive for a guy and the list goes on.. but then again, his flaws have turned into his strength, because he possesses something most modern city boys don't.. and that is innocence. through his innocence, you can count on him that his sweet words are real and heart-felt and you know that you can rely on his words to live on your life with him. and his intentions are simple. but where do you find such simple minded guys these days? and when we do, we call them "sua gu" (or ignorant). So, why can't everyone else be like him? the world will be a much much better place to live in! no more over suspicion. no more being skeptical about someone's good intentions. no more broken promises. no more heartbreaks. no more scandals. just a world filled with pure hearts and salted fishes. i guess i'm just rambling on about something really really lame eh? hahah. but it's just a little thought.



here's a little diagram i've come up with. you see, the red line is the external environment that is going everyday - the crazy financial climate, the random ups and downs in your life, the influence your peers have on you, the random happiness you find, the random sadness you encounter.. they are averaged out and assumed into that red line. from Wu fu's perspective, because he isn't exposed to the real world, though his happiness comes from simple simple sources, it makes him happy. you see, we are all greedy. there can never be enough to satisfy our happiness. and as for WuFu, it takes little (compared to the city goers) to brighten up his life whereas because we are so so exposed to the everyday level of happiness and we are so prone to social comparison, we never seem happy enough. you see, only when good things happen, we smile. that's too practical, isn't it? i mean, wu fu is probably happy over the small things in life. but sadly, when we are so used to the big city life, small things can no longer satisfy our big appetites for sources of happiness. i guess, thats because his happiness comes from within, so it takes little to make him happy. but as for us, we rely alot on the external environment (e.g. winning our friends when social comparing) - eg. money, materialistic wants satisfied, having a better boyfriend, having a boyfriend, having cool friends, having the better grade, having the better career .. to make us smile. but deep deep within, we are as bitter as bitter gourd dipped in bitter gourd sauce. i guess that's why, we are easily "emo-ed" over the simplest things. isn't it good if life was simpler? where it was like when we were during our childhood? hmm.. so, how do i lower my big city-goer's appetite for happiness to one where its simple enough to make me smile to simplest things like just seeing the sun shining, but without giving up halfway due to the influence of this damn practical society?

hmm... i guess the answer varies from individual to individual. in fact, some might argue that they are happy being the city-goer they are. and some might add on that, being simple is simply being in denial and it will do you no good. but how will knowing reality make our lives easier or happier anyway? reality robs hope. its like the movie "the tooth fairy", where tooth fairies die (or something along that line) because adults start telling children that they don't exist, thus taking away a simple source of happiness. that's what reality does. but sometimes, we are just plain curious although we do know deep in our hearts that the reality will always (or mostly) hurt. how strange human beings are.. foolish, overrated creatures who think that they are superior to the other animals just because they have a thumb.

oh well. i wanna go somewhere simple. somewhere where people made merry everyday although there isn't any particular reason to celebrate but they do anyway! oh well. in the "typical, practical, smug city go-er" lingo, i just simply wanna waste my life in denial.

Life is a two-sided coin.

The jack neo saga has taught us one lesson: Life is a two-sided coin. When he was enjoying the money, fame and glory and with many people wanting to be in his footsteps after seeing him become so successful, he has proven that there is a downside to being famous and successful. He has taught us all, that fame isn't the answer to everything. Yes, it makes your life alot more extravagant and easier to live, with your life being prioritized above all other commoners like the rest of us. but then, when you make one booboo (which in this case, 11 booboos for mr famous director), it gets amplified and magnified. i guess people can't blame the reporters. they are doing their jobs and in the first place, it is these reporters that boosted him to where he is today. without the reporters praising his movies and shows, would he have been famous? I guess you can call these the perks of the job. he (and other celebrities) signed up to be our (and our kids') role models when they signed the contract to be an actor/actress, thus it is the duty of the reporters to tell us about their lives, so that we continue to know what it is we want to learn from them, which is why we buy the things they endorse, which in return, gives them their pay cheque. Like the SGX, reporters mainly tell us what we need to know to "invest" our respect to him. i admit that the reporters should leave his wife and kids alone because they are afterall, not whom we idolize and know. they are just people who keep our idols (and celebrities in general) sane and able to produce good shows/ products for us to carry on idolizing them.

As for mdm kng, i would just say its her bad luck. She is the wife of mr famous director, and hence, she has vowed to be with him, through thick and through thin 27 years ago when she said "i do". So i guess this is what she has sworn herself into. i pity her a lot, because, she simply made a wrong choice. but then again, how would she have known that in 27 years time, her famous and successful husband would be sex partners/ jerks to 11 other girls? i wouldn't call her a coward for not confronting him and making a big hoo-ha 1 year ago when she knew of wendy chong (the slut)'s affair with mr famous director. in fact, she swallowed the pride as a woman and of her principles for the sake of keeping her already-very-in-the-limelight (in a good way) life as normal and out of the press as possible. Her actions simply kept her children away from the unnecessary stress and pressure from the public. i respect her for that because i would never have been able to do that. i am not as selfless, as a woman, to do so.

anyways, i know i was furious and stuff about this. so i thought it through rationally, and i have concluded the above. agreeing with me or not, this is simply my opinion as an ex-fan of mr famous director's works/ the public/ a female and from the perspective of a reporter.

Of another valentine-less Valentines Day.

I have never had a (proper) date on Valentines' Day. I have had dates before, but they just never seem to stay on long enough for V. day! haha. oh well, 20 consecutive valentines-less valentines day..though i almost broke the chain last v. day... so, it's a tragedy eh? I guess it is, to some people who have never had a shortage of suitors. But you know, i'm still proud to be single above that all. I could have just gone out with some desperate jerk who just wants sex just so i could become attached. But then, i really need to find someone whom i can have "the feel (or commonly known as chemistry)" with. And in my life, there was only 1 guy who did that. But its all over already. Of course, seeing so many of my friends looking so happy in their facebook profiles with their good-looking boyfriends made me green with envy, i'd admit. and of course, i'd love to have someone whom i love and loves me back. Afterall, Nat King Cole sang, "The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return". But what if my love never comes? Am i gonna be sour and sulky about it? Anyway i have already gave in to cupid, if cupid thinks i should have a boyfriend, then i guess i will have one. but if not, i'm not gonna give a damn. i guess i'll have to focus my life on other areas of my life - travelling around the world, be the journalist i wanna be, be the best friend i can be to my dearest friends, be the good daughter to my parents, be a good human being.

Although i have mentioned that i've never had a (proper) date on Valentines day, it didn't mean that i didn't feel any love before on that day! I remember going out with morgan so many times on v. days, letting people think that we're lesbians. X= hahaha! One valentine's day was spent with hong choo and anita, i remembered. see? they are still filled with love, though not the romantic kind. I guess adeline was right, i should just love the single life while i'm in it. I mean, if its fated, it will be, won't it?

Oh, found from my personal blog a breakdown of what i did on some of the V days of my life!

2007: I wanted to scream. lol! had no idea why..

2008: I went k-boxing with morgan and counted how many bouquets of flowers we saw. I was also packing for Perth trip then.

2009: Spent it with Morgan again, eating ice cream.

2010: I supposed will be spending it with my beloved family. I am so loving being single! Though you'd probably think that i'm really superficial because if i was okay with it, i probably wouldn't be blogging about this right? Wrong. just wanna remind all my single friends out there, that you are not alone. (:

And as for all the happy couples (especially Chantel and Terence, Adeline Khng and Darren), HAPPY V. DAY!

Feb 10, 2010 8:38:18 AM

Of payphones.

When was the last time you frantically search through your coin purse for some loose change to throw them into a narrow rectangular hole on the right hand corner of a red box they used to call - Payphone?

Feb 7, 2010 5:46:07 AM

Of procrastination.

Today, i was called in by my lecturer to have a talk about the referral letter she was preparing for my university application. the moment i sat down, she asked me, "What are your strengths and weaknesses?"

I paused.

I went through a list of strengths with her, which included me having leadership experience and being enthusiastic about school events. When it came to my weaknesses, there was only one which we zoomed into - PROCRASTINATION.

Wow. Even a lecturer who has taught me for barely a year can see that i am one who procrastinates. I am guilty. i procrastinate a lot. i procrastinate so much that even my friends are unaware of it. i even procrastinate on sleep. I have decided to write on this topic to acknowledge this problem and hopefully to find a solution for it.

Whenever i am given a task to do, say for example, for a school project, i do not start on it immediately. i would log onto facebook, and then check out my emails, and check out celebrity blogs, and play facebook games i don't even touch on normal days, and i go to the loo, and i go and get some snacks, and i rest, and i blog, and i do ANYTHING ELSE that didn't involve doing my project. Even right now as i am typing this blog post, i am procrastinating my sleep, because my eyelids feel so so heavy, but i just refuse to budge the sting in my eyes and carry on with this blogging thing.

The reason i procrastinate? Its for the most childish reason - I'm afraid of time. whenever i am 100% focused on doing something - be it work, or play, i am so wrapped around in that world that i become unaware of my surrounding. By the time i reach the arrival hall of reality, the whole day would have been gone. When i realised that this is what concentration brings to me, i freaked out! i want to know whats going on around me. i want to be part of whatever thats going on around me. i don't want to be in my world. i want to be in the world. i don't want to realise what i have missed out because i have been in my world. its scary how detached you can be. it truly is. so, it has been more than 2 years since i realised that and it has been showing in my report cards. i never dare to study too much because of this fact, and hence, i put them off. Friends and family are placed way ahead of my studies. Whenever my friends asked me out and i know i have to do my homework at night, i'd go out with my friends. Whenever i know i have work to do, i don't do them until the last minute when i really need to hand them up. i know you might think that it's a lame excuse to defend my poor grades, but its a fact. i do have a phobia for time, for growing up. Chronophobia (defined in wikitionary as Fear of the passing of time, or more generally of time itself.) is what makes me procrastinate.

The solution: No idea. I guess i really have to do one thing at a time and stop worrying so much. What's the point of worrying about the future when the present is more blurry than the future, eh? To be able to succeed in life, focus is important. i am one of the rare female species of human being who cannot multi-task. i only perform when i grasp the best understanding of something, and that requires my 100% focus. But because being 100% focused makes time fly by faster than you think it has, it is the root of all my problems. Well, i am going to try to take my mind off this whole "time flies past" nonsense. But u know whats the fear here? it is that, what if it takes 20 years to have gained consciousness of my surroundings from being absorbed into my own world? What if i missed 20 years of .. opportunities just because i was too focused? Its kinda like the "chicken egg theory", where the problem is pretty much the solution and vice versa.

I have no idea what is going to happen. But i do know for sure that i need a change in order to move on in my life. I guess i will need to change then, to be successful. But you know what they say - its always easier said than done.

Feb 3, 2010 9:05:43 AM

I'm sick of typepad. it is too advanced for an amateur like me. so i'm gonna just import the posts over, and this will officially be the place for me to try out a little professional writing. here goes..